Alright..So I am NOT one to post myself in a bathingsuit..truthfully it makes me exxxtremly nervous.
Not to mention I am a mom, I never want Penn to look one day and be embarrassed of me (I mean more then he already would be)
Before I left, I had someone tell me I do not try hard enough. Well this is one of the things I do, for me. Four months after surgery I needed to get back up. Everything I do in life involves my whole heart. My family, my work, and if you watched my squat and deadlifts, you can tell I pour it into my lifting.
Training away from home and stepping outside of my box two weeks away from Nationals is always a pleasure and a key component for me. Having people get in my space and changing what I see in my peripheral helps so much. I am so used to my own space and having my useable sight clear. Having the blurs of faces or arms etc. as well as multiple voices and different acoustics helps with my mental training and my physical training.
My girls brought it to my attention that I am a bit touchy when I have people moving around in my kitchen and stirring things or trying to help. I couldn't figure this out. I was baking muffins on a bright day and it hit me. My kitchen is a place I spend a lot of time. It has taken work for me to feel comfortable there, I am frustrated when things are moved or changed.
As I head down the road to nationals, I have to get up and utilize my support system. It does not make me stronger to go without. I'm talking about the support system outside of my family, the people that keep me moving. I have the amazing advice of my coach who can tweak and adjust things as I need, but also the different therapists and professionals that keep me moving.
A year ago this was me...
Dieting is the HARDEST part about loosing weight. It is this constant mind battle going back and forth of 'Should I' to 'Its not worth it' to 'F' it I, I want it' to 'EAT ALL THE CALORIES" haha
Every once in a while, members of the fitness media will highlight the extreme diet and exercise regimes that make up the "dark side" of the fitness field. Of course, this stance can be slightly hypocritical since so much of the field is predicated on selling both the product -- and ideals -- associated with extreme weight loss solutions.
So come on..we have ALL said. We have been in a conversation with one of our mom friends or relatives..and thought in our head..
"Seriously how does she do it"
My absolute favorite lift had fear wrapped around it, the fear of pain and fear of failure. I had to identify this and work on conquering it before I could even pick up that bar. I had to find where the fear was and use some tools to work with it.
So sometimes it's when I am bored or something that I see, or someone I see when I realize I really am 'growing up' and getting older, I don't think it really ever comes on my birthday for me because that's just a day..its not like anything changes 9/10 times on that day..its the other days in a year when you realize. For me driving to work this morning and waiting for my coffee I realized ah I am getting older..